The Biography of Her

2010-03-26T14:09:00.003+08:00

I realize my mistake. No one have any idea how disappointed i am with myself to have disappoint someone i love so dearly. having this, i had to bear its consequences. and this have cause me the thing i feared most,losing my dearest.

i dont know whats next. bu i know very well he wouldn't be around anymore like he usually do.it kills me so badly.i dont know what to do,even if i do,i know it can hardly work.

I can't hold this feeling anymore...Baby i'm sorry.i wish you're back.

how stupid can i get....ergh! i'm soooooooooooooo frustrated with myself!!!!!!! whyyyyyyy?!!?!??!?! stupid stupid stupid!!!!

2010-02-25T16:59:00.002+08:00

Hey ya world!

i've been quiet,not updating and all.been busy.busy with work,busy trying to make life better and so on.

this blog is dying and and lacking of readers too.i really need to get a laptop at hm so at least i could blog and fb-ing off my working hours as i am now relying on my work pc very much.home pc is DEAD.

i got nothing much to say now.til then.take care.and good luck my super dusty blog.

p.s: family,friends and Muhammad Hisham....i love em' dearly.

signing out.

2010-01-08T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hey world...

i think i've lost the touch and mojo of blogging. i keep letting my blog filled with expired entries,also,totally no updates...even my tagboard so quiet...sianx.

its just that i got nothing to blog about. life been quite stagnant for me...nothing interesting happening.not forgetting,i've been hibernating at home for most weekend...after work?i've been going home straight or rushing to pick my mum up from aunt's place. bf?kesian...i only get to see him like once a wk for only few hours...friends?lagik kesian,i totally dont get to see them.
i just hope things would get better for me soon.its 2010 already and i need things to really be better.

well,anyway,i know its a lil late,but its ok, i guess, Happy New Year 2010 peeps!

now,i'm thinking of how to get myself look healthy.i've been looking sick with my eye bags and my sudden loss of weight. i hardly can sleep and i eat but appetite been bad.like really bad.
hopefully i will be ok soon too.

aiyah.i miss bf.i miss my friends.i miss going out jalan2 pusing2 singapore balik malam2...boohoo.

kla...ciaox ppl!

2009-12-24T16:44:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since arwah Ayah left us but it feels like it just happen yesterday. Hard to believe he's gone but this is fact,this is the real world...who would have thought Ayah who have been healthy,cheerful and whom have taken well of his heart problem will leave us even much more sooner than we ever expected.

Arwah Ayah was dearly remembered by others for his character and good deeds. His smiles,his jokes,how he scolded me,his presence,how we teased Mak till she'll get frustrated with us...only Allah knows how much i misses him.theres more to what i feel inside but i can hardly describe cause it meant to be felt than being told...

We never know when our loved ones will leave...maybe later,maybe tomorrow or even now at this very moment...we can never see it coming.

Ini lah yang dinama kan takdir,qadha dan qadhar...Hanya Allah yang tahu kerana Dia yang menentukan segalanya...dan hari kematian itu juga sudah tertulis dan selainnya itu hanya akan menjadi sebab akan kematian itu berlaku...

Ya Allah,aku redha akan pemergian Ayah ku,sesungguhnya Engkau lebih menyayangi nya,lapang kan la kuburan Ayah ku,ampuni la dosa-dosa Ayah ku,ini ku pinta padamu kerna Engkau la Maha Pengampun,Pengasih dan Penyayang...Amin...

top 3 hot list

2009-12-10T12:00:00.005+08:00

I'm a little too free for the moment...

And heres my TOP 3 HOT LIST!

*drum roll*

As always...the one and only JAY SEAN...mind you! have always been in the list hor.hurhur.

TAYLOR LAUTNER,I didn't know this boy can turn up to be so hot and spicy.hmm...haha!

ROBERT PATTINSON, he just simply have those gorgeous charming look...those eyes?ergh! kills me baby!

well ok.guess i am toooo free...

but can never compare them to the boyfriend la eh :P

k gambar lepak pe.haha!

un interesting

2009-12-08T13:07:00.002+08:00

hey ya world...

life is getting a little mundane...
i need some excitement or something. work been hell...i just wanna leave sooner or later...the boyfriend been busy with his work,part time and all...gf ayu is in india,cousin irah is at jurong west temporarily...boring pe?

i spend most of my days going to work,bbdc and home...errr...new routine or what?macam no life aje... however,its quite money-saving to live life this way too tau...but no way gonna let this keep going,i need to deeeeestrresssss myself...

am looking forward to 18 dec...the ite loves will be meeting!woot!

btw,this week a little bliss for me alright...cause till thurs i'll be alone in the office...and so i can do my work peacefully.enjoy it while you can eh fah.

till then, i'll blog my nonsense again.

signing off...luna(tic) no more lunatic.boorriiiinggggg....!!!!

new moon

2009-12-03T11:42:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday was superb!
why?cause baby and i went to catch The Twilight Saga: New Moon.

can you imagine me smiling thw whole night?haha!

The great movie and the two HOTT guys was SUPER MADNESS for me.
Baby keep covering my eyes,hoping i would miss edward's and jacob's hot 'moves'.haha!
sorry aye.i didn't miss a thing!

thnx baby for the new moon night!

2009-12-01T11:41:00.002+08:00

am i stress,depress or unhappy?

yesterday is over,now comes today and tomorrow yet to come.
every single day when i step my foot out of my house to work,all i prayed for was my safety,my beloved's safety,a better day and skills to learn.

but we all know,we cant expect our days to always go smoothly.
never did i have a job that affect my live so bad.not talking bad bout my job and company.but certain things just not for you.

like most people been advising me 'patience is a virtue'...ya am i trying to upgrade my patience level...

now lets just see if things goes well.

freak.i still prefer wrking in sentosa...customer service,so my thing la eh.
so i guess this is what they call 'experience'.

and bb,thnx for being there for me that night.i felt better and relieved.muax!

2009-11-30T16:44:00.001+08:00

deep trouble deep trouble deep trouble

deep shit deep shit deep shit

ahhhh!!!

cannot cannot cannot

cant take it...i probably gonna breakdown sooonnnn...fuccckkkk!!!

feeling shitty

2009-11-26T15:19:00.003+08:00

i'm at work and feeling shitty BIG TIME.

you know,i realize....certain times and certain things really demoralising that it just make you just wanna run away.

and at certain things too, you really cant force and make yourself learn even though all you wanted was an experience.

i felt like my interest,my talent and my capability doesnt belong here. i need something else...i'm already at the verge of giving up.but why should i when its only the beginning?and when i think again,even if its the beginning,why do i have to do something by forcing myself...

ergh! i just want today to end,time past by so fast and last but not least,a hug...

2009-11-20T15:11:00.002+08:00

Woot!

Its Friday again! the only day in a week that i keep looking forward to...
i got nothing much to update actually but i think i've been a good girl since last weekend.

why?
-i've been home for the weekends,only out with parents.
- been home early after work,at worst,8pm...

baik nye aku!
haha

k i'm bored.i'm alone in the office. when clock strikes 5pm,zoom! i'm on my way to NYP for Layar Andayu's production. excited excited!excited to see my Sentosa-ians and see rya shaking that booty on stage!!! weet! hahaha.

as for now,i just feel like sleeping...the weather is just too nice.n i'm shivering too la eh..my cardigan too thin.ergh!

asl eh aku cerita barang2 merepek ni kat korang?plain bored uh.

dah uh.aku blah pun cantik.berbual minah pe aku?beat that la seh!ok dah diam.haha!

tata ppl.

shitty?

2009-11-16T13:56:00.002+08:00

Monday...
ergh! always draggy.hardly been a Monday where by it would be a good start of the week.

hidup dah mendak...so acam?quit job and lepak all day kape?mahu pe?

bleargh!

2009-11-11T12:11:00.002+08:00

Its November already and 2009 will soon come to an end.

If someone ever ask me whats the best thing that ever happen to me in this year, 2009,
i will answer "The chance that Allah gave to me and Hisham."

Syukur.
Love you baby.

p.s: sorry b.i stole your pic from you know where.haha!

2009-11-09T10:13:00.002+08:00

i couldnt help but to admit that i miss school too much.
eversince i started working here,i hardly find the joy in it.everyday seems to be a hell for me.i drag myself to work.every single morning,the moment i reach work,i'll be yearning to go home or just get my ass away from work.yes,i have a stable job but i'm unhappy.its not really the job i want.ok,this is what i call job but not a career.if you get what i mean.

why i miss school so much was the joy i had studying with friends,having them around me,we do things together. those times where we always be late for school,cabot lesson to go makan or just merayap to IMM.we even cabot lesson just to go study (konon nya murid tercontoh la kan). stressing and squeezing our brain juice together for projects...everything was sooo....hmm...cant find the right word...but all i know...schooling days have been my happiest days ever.

but without realising, those days are over,infact,its been months that its over.

i wonder,what am i doing sitting in this office now,working and being all unhappy about it.i feel lost for a moment.

ergh! nk cry can tk?

2009-11-06T16:19:00.003+08:00

hello world...

i'm in the office...waiting for dont know what...no one is in the office except me and abg johor.once he leave,if there is sufficient time,i think i go jog alone for awhile,be back in office and off to theory practice since i'm oh-super-free today! woot!

trying hard not to spend my money too yaw! cause i have no idea where my money is going.
tap tup tap tup...thats all that i left...aiyoh.

*tgh ckp dlm hati* bang oh bang...lincah la klr office ni...org nk tukar baju nk go jog la..nanti terlmbt pulak...boring je...

lalalalalalal...
tick tock tick tock...wah my boy have the chance to slp all day long with this cooling weather seh! jealous seminit!!!pfft.

k uh.bye!

Too much

2009-11-04T10:19:00.001+08:00

I miss my boy!!!
argued too much...
been alot of malas-nak-layan moments...
been alot of 'i ngantok' moments...

mane awak?

boring seh.

hmm...

2009-10-28T13:03:00.004+08:00

As per icon above, yes,thats how i feel.

boohoo!

I had great destressing moments past weekends.i had ayu to sit,chit chat,jalan2,eat fried mars bars,some laughters spent together with me.

while the other weekend i had baby to have a feast with me at Popeye.now thats what i call GLORIOUUSSS FOOOODDD...nak lagik! nk lagik!

i have photos,edited and all.but i just couldn't use the internet at home.the net at home been such an ass.either theres virus or its just my comp that is corrupt cause it seems that almost every website i visit i being blocked.wth?so frustrated.

and to transfer to my thumbdrive and upload it at work,i just got no time to sit infront of the comp at home cause by the time i'm home,i'll be dead tired.all i want to do is,have my shower,dinner,some tv time,last but not least,sleep.

And now,being that i already started jogging,twice a week at least,after work,i'm losing its habit already. cause i just thought,it looks like almost everyday i'll be home late. i just want some days whereby i can be home early and not have my mum ringing my mobile over and over again asking me when will i be home.

you know,i think,recently,i feel like the only place i wanna be is,my home.its so hard to have me at home seh or be home early and be with my parents...haix.

oh well.

gtg.till i blog again!

For you.

2009-10-22T17:08:00.003+08:00

For you,

whom have sacrifice your love for me,
Just for my happiness and future,
I can never Thank you enough.
I'm deeply sorry for not being able to ever see those things you did for me.

Knowing,listening and seeing the truth,
you still give me advises and encouragement to this current relationship i have.
cause you believe that was the best for me.

I know its not easy to let go of something/someone that you've been searching without fail
for two years.and to leave it after you found it.

I'm sorry for taking this long to realise.I'm sorry for running away.Sorry for everything.

Now, you left. So suddenly. i can't reach you in any way. Your facebook,mobile,MSN...every means of communication.I don't even know if you ever know that my blog existed.Now,like what i did to you once upon a time, have now return to me. I feel the Karma now.

i never had the chance to tell you how grateful and how thankful i am towards you.

Wherever you are, please know how grateful i am towards you...thank you sooo much. i lead a better life now,with so much love from him. I hope you find yours one day and lead a blissful relationship with her too. I wish you all the best.no worries,you are a better man now.

.......................................

And Baby,

This is the truth.Truth hurts,i know.

He sacrifice his love for me to let me lead this wonderful relationship with you. Cause he know you would be a better man for me. and how much i have love you.

Not asking you to be appreciative towards him.its just me that i'm too thankful to him for his advises and encouragement.

Baby,you know i love you so much and wish this will last as long as it could.

I hope you able to understand. Love you.

don't give me that cold shoulder sayang,i can't take it.

Love,
Irfah

2009-10-16T17:09:00.002+08:00

Dear blogger,

guess i wasted the day.its friday.no bosses in the office...just me and the tembam boy.me bored.no work to do.yes....did nothing other than entertaining myself with facebook games and youtube.how good life can get if the rest of my working life is exactly just like right now...three malay words...MAKAN GAJI BUTA.but fat hope ok...in this line i'm doing...when its busy...theres no way you can be at ease on take a minute break and vist your cafe world.

ahhhh....where is loverboy...he sound cranky when i called him earlier on...understnd understood,abg kita tu tgh tidur,penat dari kerje la katakan...

well ok...waiting for loverboy....

extremely bored!!!

bye ppl!

Mundane Monday

2009-10-12T16:47:00.004+08:00

Mundane Monday

Yes people! its a MUNDANE MONDAY!!! office is so quiet...colleague is not around...i got nothing to do....all i did for the past office hours was....FACEBOOK,CAFE WORLD...over and over again...

first few hours was fine but not until the next few hours after lunch ok...its killing mee!!! ok the clock is striking 5 pm soon...i'm soooo gonna leave work.anyone out there care for a drink with me?just to spice up my oh super boring monday....

oh maybe should i just go home,have my rest and start munching infront of the tv?if i were to meet my friends,mum will be calling me over and over again cause dad is having his night shift tonight...ergghhh...

what can i do ....what can i do...what can i do....

ok thats it...i'm leaving!

till then...have a good day ya people!

p.s: missing ayu sooo badly.

Lebaran with Friends

2009-10-02T11:38:00.006+08:00

Eid celebration with friends this year seem to be very very quiet compared to last years. Maybe every individual have been busy with work and etc.

Well,its ok.we shall have a mini perjumpaan hari raya when everybody is free alright.yes,this is a shout out to my Jin Tai Sec and ITE peeps...you guys jangan nak cabot eh!!!

ok so thats that.

On Tuesday 29th September 2009, i actually took leave from work just to jalan raya with Baby and friends.sanggup aku kau! well thats after much pujuk by him too uh. they manage to rent a van with driver for a few hours,specially for those who stay away from choa chu kang and yew tee.that is of obviously for people like me. :) so ya...the whole visiting was all about makan makan makan.corset dan kain ku,baik-baik swee2,cantik,longgar-longgar siket sampai jadi teramat ketat dan tertumpah-tumpah babat aku...terselah segalanya akhirnya.haha!

Menu of the day

- Spaghetti
- Mee Soto
- Bone Steak
- Kari Daging
- Roasted Duck

*and maybe some others that i cant remember?maybe include the kuih-muih also?

haa amek kau! tell me how can i not have my baju become so tersendat??? and so much of losing weight a month back la kan.bb!! both of us very bulat already...how?

other than eating,knowing that this year i had to give out duit raya to the kids,following them,i dont really have to! haha.instead,i'm the one who got the duit raya....eeeee...irfah tk tahu malu...hahaha!

i really enjoyed the visiting with them...at least the 'kecoh-kecoh raya' atmosphere is still around...

as for 'kecoh-kecoh raya with family', no need to story la eh...1st and 2nd day of lebaran have always been very kecohrable,enough to bring the whole floor down.mind you! i got HUGE family.

psst...yang itu kesayangan saya ok.hee!

And again...Salam Lebaran to all Muslims ;)

boring!

2009-09-25T18:22:00.002+08:00

Time check: 6:21pm

i've ended work about half an hour ago.loverboy is late! boohoo.
funny.when i end late,he's early.when i end early,he 's late.ggrrr...

oh well,thats not so bad la ok.

anyhoos...

Jay Sean

aaahhh....
i go googooo gagaaaaa over him sooo badly.sorry loverboy.bet you too have your own celebrity idol that you just would go goooo gagaaa over right.so ya...Jay Sean...shit man.he's cute,he's voice,just gonna make you melt...damnnnnnn....his eyes...whoa! hahaha!

anybody out there agree with me???

Sleepy as always

2009-09-23T10:04:00.003+08:00

Morning Greeting People!!!

As usual on weekdays morning,i'm at work,complaining how sleepy and lazy i am to have myself to work,

*yawn*

*yawn*

&

*yawn*

aku penat gila la seh.

psssttt...yest. i met lover boy...hee! everytime i see him,aku rasa macam aku kat awang-awangan dok! btol! tk bedek! hahaha! he is one boy who can really entertain my crap....

and also...if u guys want to catch Bohsia 2009,the Singapore version...saksikan la telatah Irfah dan Hisham.Hisham sebagai Acai dan Mus,Irfah sebagai Tasha.gurantee pecah perot doh!

okie2...i stop my crap.back to work.
ciaox!!

Shout out to Bb!!! mish u!!

2009-09-22T14:16:00.001+08:00

Salam Eid Mubarak kepada semua kaum Muslims!

Kepada teman-teman dan sahabat handai dan orang-orang yang Irfah amat sayangi,
Irfah mohon ampun maaf sekiranya ada gerak-geri atau tutur bahasa yang tidak menyenangkan hati.Semoga kamu sekalian mendapat kesihatan dan rezeki yang murah di raya ini dan juga di hari-hari yang lain. Amin.

Dengan penuh kasih sayang dan kerinduan,

Irfah

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Chey chey chey...bila baca balik apa irfah tulis kat atas tu kan...mcm not bad juga eh melayu aku..kes leh ada potensi dapat A* uh.hahaha! perasan tak abes.so bb?what do you say? :P

well,1st and 2nd day of Eid was not bad.as usual,the only matter i look forward to,is to meet all my dearest cousins.being that all,now,they have their own life and busy with their own matters,we hardly see each other and also result to only meet once a year. :(

this year,nomore collection for me.Now,its my turn to give the kids.tkpe la eh...rezeki budak-budak.eh wait! i did get one! from abang that is.haa! nasib abang ku baik.kau la abg aku dunia dan akhirat! wahahahaha...if he sees this sentence i wrote,mampos kene kejar satu Teban!hee!

i'm at work now.sleepy and tired.insufficient rest cause by the kecoh-kecoh raya.i'll upload a few photos of raya,IF i have la kan.

time check: 2.30 pm.

reminder: lover boy picking me up at 6-6.30? shit la..about 4 more hours to go?

aiyoh.bye la.

2009-09-15T17:00:00.001+08:00

Hello world.

a sudden feeling of misses.

ITE days.

(first few months together,before a few of them left us)

(that day when we realize,all of us make it through the journey.)

i miss ITE days. it was so hard to let go of each other on the last day of school and the graduation day.we all know how much we love and will miss each other.

(from the old to the new batch,we stayed on..never fails to meet up each other.)

(that uniform,that color,will never suit me!!)

i miss sentosa days.though that orangey uniform is ridiculous,the fact is,that orangey uniform have brought me to a whole great bunch of people.

(see how youthful we look!awww...rindu deh ar!)

i miss fun girls time with ayu.times when we go totally bonkers.sungguh kecoh.com!

i love the friendship we build.i swear beb! chey chey chey.

k gtg.till then!

muax!

grumpy grumpy grumpy

2009-09-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

Morning people.

I realise i have been very grumpy for the past few days.no idea why.maybe PMS-ing?
so the victim so far was baby,that apek cobbler and mum...haix.

so not irfah seh to get all grumpy all week long.
sorry baby.sorry mum.and no sorry to apek cobbler.that heels is still at its best condition and you make it worst tau.marah seh! i dont buy that heels for fun alright.ergh!

however,baby you did well in making me feel better despite having yourself get nagged and binget2 by me. well thank you ok.mum,tu fried kway teow nye pasal,tk ok pun jadi ok uh! baik pe?haha!

anyhoos,raya is next weekend and i'm broke.how?gerek?fun?

yours truly,

irfah.

2009-09-09T09:25:00.000+08:00

Greetings earthling.

i'm at work as usual.bored and never love working cause this job makes sit infront of the com for hours.will be brain dead anytime soon i guess.

anyhoos,

Loverboy,

i'm missing you already,in fact,i i'm already missing you the moment you take the lift down after sending me home.Baby,you know i love you as much you love me.

Yours truly,

Irfah.

i want to go home!

2009-09-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

tick tock tick tock.

time check, 4.25 pm.

i sooo wanna go home. :( and i cant see my favourite loverboy today...boohoo.cause dad will screaming at me if i were to eat out and reach home late again tonight.ergh.sungguh tk kasi chance uh.

and now i jangkit fatin and baby already...syik2 sing lagu Cari Jodoh.aiyoh!

dh uh.bye!

2009-09-05T09:43:00.000+08:00

Look! its friday again! weeeeeeeeee

i love fridays...cause it marks the last day of the weekday!even better when the clock strikes 5.30pm.

and today too, is the 14th day of Ramadhan.means raya is exactly in 2weeks time. excited?not really.this year the excitement is not as great as the past years.maybe i'm just a little too busy and tired.

oh well. its 4.59 now,I'm patiently waiting for the Loverboy to arrive.(ehem ehem!)thnk you and love you dear. ;)

tick tock tick tock.
where to break fast where to break fast where to break fast!!!

Got my nasi goreng ikan bilis...whats next?hmm....fried kway teow uh!hahaha

anyhoos,yest. met up with my sentosa girls and a guy (zul). thanks girls for the chocolates! purposely trying to make me grow horizontally kan...hehe! no worries...i have always loveeeeeeeeeeee chocolates!!!

i got nothing much to blog about actually.gtg.till then!

irfah.
Selamat Berbuka dalam jangka masa dua jam ye kawan-kawan!

2009-08-31T09:54:00.000+08:00

Since blogger is such an ass to my home desktop,i have decided to curi-curi gunakan blogger di kerja,memandang kan boss-boss saya belum tiba di office. :)

haha!

Well,lets start my story telling...

I have always look forward to weekend. why?cause weekend are times where i can have extra sleep,let my brain rest,spend my time with my kesayangans.

For this last weekend,both days was well spent with people i love soooooo much.

Saturday 29th August 2009

Had the 1st half of the day dedicated to mum. Accompanied her to Gombak,just to let her shop. So theres go my cute mother ajak her daughter jalan-jalan from Gombak to Jurong Point to Jurong West Selera Ramadhan. and guess what time we start to jalan-jalan?about 11am.wow! siang or what!

Then after buka, baby picked me up and off we go to catch the movie "Where Got Ghost?" hilarious with a little bit of lameness...ok uh...lepak ar cerita dia...

its funny to enter the movie theatre knowing that you are watching a chinese show and feels weird that you are the only malay or maybe of of the few among the chinese. However,this is not our first time. Asal eh b kita tk watch malay movie je?pelik la pulak.hmm...well the show is very Singapore style.go watch it!

Sunday 30th August 2009

I thought this year i would be a little relax about baybeats instead of being excited like previous years.thought i just wanna watch from far,listen to the music or maybe totally not turn up for baybeats.but NO! i was wrong...i came down with Zma and friends and in the end i went crazy like any other years.hahaha! and if to think that i'm too old for moshing moments,neh,i'm never old for it.Zma,you're my moshing buddy la...tapi tk kn smpai 23,24 pun nk mosh mcm pompan gila eh...

And to know that bf is going to the same event and hoping not to bump on him there is soooo stupid uh fah.out of all the places i could bump on my dearest,in the middle of the crowd. So,in the end, Zma and me went our seperate ways after the crazy event,she went with his friends,and me?whats more?bf dah de,dia hantar alek ar...haha!

oh btw...

on 26th Aug...i turned 20 la seh!

One year older....no more a teenager! boohoo..well to all darlings that have wish me in any medium,be it fb,sms,msn and phonecalls, thank you so much alright.this year was rather simple.break fast with my baby and his parents....(meet parents or what!haha!) errr...ok la.. -_-

i guess thats all for now...till then...

muax!

awak,mish you. ;)

2009-08-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

i cant post a proper entry from my home desktop cause blogger is not at its actual format here.geram pe aku ngn computer aku....mintak ampun seh ni.

sesungguh nya ku berpuasa,cannot bingit2.

well ok,will update through work's place desktop.if i'm not busy that is.

till then,

Irfah

p.s: baby,i love you!

busy busy busy

2009-08-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

Good day my dear earthlings!

sorry for not updating.been busy with work and trying to ease my mind from problems, to the extend, i tire myself.

well,i'm feeling better now.

anyhoos,i've filled my weekend with great events and great people,simply all in one package...

Saturday 8th August 2009

Celebrating Fatin's 20th. We clearly know her wish was to karaoke for the whole day,well everyone knows she love to karaoke.but this time round with our friends brilliant ideas,we manage to put it together and give her a little surprise on top of the karaoke session. Fatin, i hope you enjoyed your day alright. so, Happy 20th Birthday and i swear kau nampak garang la siol ngn tattoo spiderman tu...fuh! mat2 pun tk berani ar nk dekat ngn kau.hahaha! ;)

Sunday 9th August 2009

Planned to just meet up Hisham,without any idea where or what to go and do. In the end, met up his friends at City Hall and catch the fireworks and feeling patriotic la kan.kita anak jati Singapura ok.Hisham was very semangat with red shirt ok.haa!

we manage to stick together despite the crowd that almost drive us gila. after fireworks, we had late dinner at Newton Circus...hmm...makan makan makan.hobby gitu lor.next, Boy brought us to Blackmore,seriously i have no idea where is that place.so just lepak2,dah ngntok balik uh.

The day ended with a great ending. :)

That day,that night,i can hardly describe how i felt. all i know, i had to thank you,i hope you mean it and i love you.

Saturday 15th August 2009

Cuzzy Irah had to do her portfolio for her make up course. So here i am and iqa,being her model yang tk bermodal.hehe! cuzzy,we are honoured to be your model of the day and trust me, you got the talent and passion. keep it up and you'll go far with it.

So thats my 3 fun filled weekend.hmm...guess i have make use of my weekend wisely aye.not bad...

Last but not least...

we're fine now. :) i'm just hoping for the best and shall things just get better.
only you yourself know how it really feels deep down your heart.

Love you Hisham.

2009-08-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

I just believe that every words said are prayers asked.
He knows best.

Between me and him are good now.But i'm a little busy finding solutions to my problem.so ya...will blog soon. ;)

2009-08-05T09:40:00.001+08:00

Subhanaallah! kusut nye kepale aku!

work is double pressure now
mum is worrying me much over her weak leg
He is not here with me
ape niiii...why everything have to come in one shot???

2009-08-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

Last week,i lost my mind.

This week i feel pathetic.

I miss you sooo badly but i just felt its sooooo pathetic of me to keep on missing you and trying to comfort myself 'its ok irfah,its not as if you cant talk to him anymore'...but thats not the point.

if i could turn back time,i would keep on replaying the moments we had when we first started together and how loving you are towards me and how blissful we are.

My tears have dried up,its not because i cried too much because of you but what i have been through from the past relationships till now.its all about the same matter.masalah nya tetap pasal guys and relationship.i wonder,what have i been doing for all this while.

i used to flirt around as much as i can after i broke up.but i cant seem to do it now.why eh?did i just lost my mojo?things feels different now.its not because i wanna stay upset and dwell over the broken relationship neither i'm staying this way cause i'm waiting for him.its just that i cant do it.i cant flirt anymore,even worst,nk buat kawan pun otak aku dah mati beb.make me stay like this for 10 years,and i'll grow up to be a grumpy old woman,trust me.

for all i know,i just miss everything about him.but why him eh?no idea.i dont care what ppl say about this shit i'm going through,i'm just gonna spill it out.furthermore,i doubt he read my blog.so no worries....

He,was a different man i dated and been in a relationship.different from the rest.he rarely verbally show me he loves and misses me.he show it alot when he sees me.He,do not need flowers or chocolates to steal my heart,he just do it by pampering me.He,plays with my hair,hug me tight,He,kissed my hand everytime we see each other,He, never fails to kiss my forehead everytime he send me home,He,was that guy who would nag or scold me for something thats is really relevant.He,is the only man so far who manage to tegur my perangai in matter of whats gd and bad,that,being able to give me a knock2 on my head.for at least bring my ego down and make me learn to ngaku my kesalahan and ringan mulut to apologise.

He,was just a simple young man with something different.which i hardly find the answer,cause its just more than what i typed in all of the above.

For this lengthy post i have, is simply just to tell how much i misses him.wherever you are,whatever you do,i want you to know i love you so much and never can thank you enough.and i'm sorry too for any wrongdoings i made towards you.

p.s: i miss you a little too much.

2009-07-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

You were someone better to take care of me,to love me and pamper me.
But all that didnt stay long.
I was hoping i could have you here with me on my birthday and have our raya together this year.
but it seems that all of it have to be put aside.

i've disappoint myself,i've bring embarassment to myself,
just to tell you how much i have love you and still wish to have you around.

for a moment,i extremely lost my mind...

and this is all...why?because of you...

Losing focus

2009-07-30T05:04:00.000+08:00

Its the next day already.
I'm feeling better physically but not emotionally.
And i'm seriously losing my focus so badly.
I just wish it never did happened.

Ya Allah,beri kan la aku kekuatan dan kesabaran.Amin.

2009-07-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

It was unexpected for us to start this story of romance and love as we started of just as an acquintance.
A beautiful story it was.
But unexpectedly too, the story ended.
I thought we're able to pull through all obstacle together but i was wrong.
All the best sweetheart.You've been great.and i hope i did well as your partner.

I love you.

2009-07-28T09:41:00.000+08:00

I guess it was a mistake to let it happen.
Now i regret.and in the end,my heart shattered again.
i could understand why what how your feeling is.
and i know very well you understood mine too.
factors about us that keep us well was the mutual understanding we have.

i want so much to leave cause i think you need it too.but i felt so hold back.
i dont know how you gonna try it out work it out or whatever you are thinking.
i'm unsure myself.
i feel so hurt and i dont know what i did to you or my previous life that make me deserve this.

well,it was pleasant enough while it lasted. i let time heal us.

till then, when i talk to you again.

2009-07-27T11:38:00.000+08:00

The more you fear,the more it will come to you.
This is reality.
I can see it coming.
Please,i'm tired enough.
I don't want to lose anything again.

heartache

2009-07-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

as cheerful as i could be seen
as depressed as i am in the inner side.
something is bothering me so badly.
something that i can hardly figure out and pull it out of my mind.

and how am i suppose to relieve myself??? neither could i talk to him nor her.
haix.

wrong move maybe?

2009-07-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

at times i just thought i did a wrong move.
at times i thought the story should not have start at the first place.
people fall in love
gave chance
begin the story
and make its journey
on the outer side it always look so fairytale
on the other,you'll never know
i love you
and you're my fear.

Happy moments?

2009-07-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

Basically, past weekends was simply filled with activities...

so lets make the pictures do the talking.

Saturday 11 July.

Baby's at work and i'm out for a little fun *winks*

Location: Costa Sands NTUC chalet,Pasir Ris
Event: Abg G's 32nd Birthday Party
Theme: Pirates

It was Abg G's, my colleague,Kak Haidah's hubby,32nd bday party.being the assistant organizer,was an honour.the party and the surprise went well as per planned.lucky me her family members is a bunch of fun people.glad to be a part of it.till next time when we have fun together.

credits to kak fezah for the photos.

Sunday 12 July

It was a small reunion outing cum dine is session at Swensens for our sentosa love,Nazerah and Yuszaida's birthday. Well, we girls gave them a choco heaven for their gifts.korang dah gain weight by the chocos,call aku ok. ;)

for sure,with this girls,it has always been fun,laughters and smiles.miss you girls so much!

Saturday 18 July

Lets get near to the beauty of nature babey!!

Baby brought me to Qian Hu Fish Farm!!! :)) do you see me smiling?did u?did u?Damn! i was a happy kid!

i'll make sure the next visit there i'll have my fish spa foot reflexology! how i wish mum would let me keep my own fishes.i am soooo tempted to catch small fishes there....geeeeraaaamm aku nyah! lagi2 part2 tgk ikan koi yang bogeh tu makan!!

next stop was west mall. we had durian pancake!!! hahaha! oh my goodness! those were soooooooooo durian-licious la seh!!! nk more can?baby and i were going crazy over it.haha!

next stop.henderson waves.simply just lepak2... :)

and this is the result of the contented tired girl.

till then,i'll blog again.

2009-07-14T05:31:00.000+08:00

Just looking forward to see the Dearest today.guess who??

tick tock tick tock.

2009-07-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

boo!

i'm a happy girl last saturday! why?cause at last i got to watch Transformers.it is DEFINITELY AWESOME.i have a hard time booking tickets okie.i only got to book midnight movie which was at Yishun and i swear i felt lucky.damn! thanks baby for melayan-ing,you know how bad i wanna watch it.i love you.

next,congrats baby,you have successfully passed out from your fire fighter course.i'm proud of you.abg bomba! abg bomba! wahahaha..kwang kwang kwang!

oh well,baby will be working shift and the whole weekend routine will have to change. :( i really hope we are able to hold on together and go through this whole situation.though i know there must be matters that will cause misunderstandings and whatever you can think of.

i'll try hard not to think about it but the fact is,you can never run away from it.

till then,

Irfah

Away from you

2009-07-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

i always hated the fact of having misunderstanding with someone i love so dearly.

and i can never stay long not talking to you.fcuking drive me crazy.

but its no point either to talk if theres nothing much of a response from you.

do know even the most little thing that would make us not talk,will make me go crazy enough.cause i know we have very limited time for each other.

Smokey Saturday

2009-06-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Last night was a fine Saturday for sure.except me and baby just thought the day was a little too short for us...boohooo. and baby,i never have enough of you. :(

well,last night,us and baby's friends was out together for sheesha and chilling session at amira's grill.with this people,theres always laughters and silly jokes.
what more can i say?things are just fine...so so fine... :))

btw,i'm craving for durians soooo badly!!! and baby just got to make me jealous.happy kape dia mkn durian sorang2! siak abes.

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the past,at times,makes you forget the present.but why get distracted by the past when the present is so beautiful to be with?my present is my life now.
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Last but not least,just to end this post,

I love my Man!!!

and i miss gf ayu,cuzzy fatt and cuzzy zma please.

till then,

Irfah.

King Of Pop

2009-06-26T12:26:00.000+08:00

King of Pop
Michael Jackson
1958-2009

R.I.P Michael Jackson.

Every beginning has its ending.

Signature...Signature

2009-06-23T01:43:00.000+08:00

Morning earthlings!

Timecheck: 10.43am

hee! yes yes! its a monday morning and i'm at work.nothing new.for now,i'm free like a bird dude!!!

theres only two of us in the office for today...weeeee....so nice to slack for a monday...kwang kwang kwang.what a attitude irfah...

besides that,past half an hour,i've been wasting few pieces of papers just to get the right signature for the documents...ssshhh....this is bad...i'm wasting paper and not saving Gaia.damn.stop it eh irfah! kau ingat tu paper,ayah kau yg supply eh! ok2...i got it.i shall not waste paper ok.hee!

what should i do aye?fb?blog?online shopping?

brilliant! online shopping wld be the best choice aye...but baby is always nagging about me spending and spending and spending uh....how eh...hmm...

nvm...i can always not tell him i've spent..haha! ar kan! lie some more! ish ish ish...dahsyat...

oh well, btw,nia! ain! when are we gonna go karaoke?????? and we need to see idil before he join police force!

till then.love you.

Cheerful weekend

2009-06-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

Past weekends was very cheerful for me....all about friends! friends! and friends! and not forgetting my favorite baby botak!

damn i'm loving life!

Friday 12th June 2009

A advance birthday surprise for gf ayu by fatin,zarina,me,bala and puvan.All just for our sweetest mangkok,Seri Rahayu.hee!

It was a rushing friday though.i rushed from work to meet up rina and fatin,we rushed to get the barang2,we rushed to dover by cab and stupidly dropped somewhere way much much far away from ayu's place.walked with heavy stuff on hand,as fast as we could and tahan-ing with fatin's complain "nk rokok! aku nk rooookookkk!!!" hahaha! fatin...fatin...

we make it in the end.i fetch ayu from her place,blindfold her with my cardigan,make her wear a cute hairband with curly hair wig.brought her to the place and there where all the suprises begin.

we hope you love it sweetx! and again Happy 20th Birthday sayang!we love you!

Saturday 13th June 2009

Sentosa loves chalet and bbq hosted by Dinie.great people,good jokes,good laughs,nice food and other else fun and happening.i just love the presence of my sentosa friends.damn i love you bunch of ppl! and i miss having supper with you guys...boohoo.

but sadly,i had to leave early cause mum dont wish me to stayover and i had to spare some time for my dearest botak.hurhur.so baby picked me up and off for some quality time. :))

Sunday 14th June 2009

Ayu's mummy had a small birthday party for her.so,the usual superstars ( bluek! ),fatin,rina and me came down and celebrated her birthday with her family members.ayu! tahun ni best kan! hee!
no pixies though.

Saturday 20th June 2009

This time round was a day out with baby and his friends.the initial plan was to have a picnic over at east coast.however,there was change of plan.so,off to marina barrage..oh wait,i have to type this....

dear diary,

It was a FREAKING SCORCHING HOT DAY ooookkkk!!!

ya ok,it was really a sunny day,the heat was WOW.so we were literally seating under the sun chit chatting,looking at people,playing taiti and munching.despite the weather,it was not bad afterall,it was fun... :)

Alone

2009-06-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

Time check: 7.40pm

yes pp,i'm still at work.alone to be exact.with much patience,waiting for the DHL guy to arrive and pick up the documents.

spending my time 'wisely' like i always do, i'm busy watching Borat movie clips and laughing to myslef...damn this guy is hilarious.i'm so into Borat and Russell Peters now.

oh! speak of the devil! here comes the DHL guy...

okie ppl! till then...

ciaox! off he go and i'm out of the office.

:))

Save Meee!!!

2009-06-11T01:43:00.000+08:00

Time check: 10.44 am

yes again i'm at work.
greetings people.

i'm hungry ok. i've been munching on prawn crackers and peanut butter m&m's since about an hour ago.my dearest kak haidah is on sick leave,the two bosses not in yet and the other two botak Australian is out searching for breakfast...errgh! saya lapar niiii!!! saya makan awak boleh??

and! i want to eat at Killiney road but how to walk there with heels!! tired ar...but anything for makan la k,i'll sacrifice!!

i also kempunan want to eat mummy's ayam masak merah ar...hmm....sedap nyeeee.

kla! bye ppl! back to work!

muax!

Livin' Your Life

2009-06-09T13:57:00.000+08:00

Hellooooo dearest readers!

hee! :D

Time check: 2pm

guess where i am?work of cause!

a little free time for me to blog for awhile.nothing much to blog about actually.getting a little bored here at work cause work is about 3/4 done.damn i'm free.

well here goes nothing but a little crap...

i'm thankful i have a full time job now.i might not earn that much but this are little baby steps to my future success.

i'm thankful to be with Hisham,even though 90% of the week he's stuck in camp.nothing much i could do.i dont mind us seating anywhere,talk crap for hours,walk around malls with no directions on Saturdays cause what matters most to me,we still got the time spent together.

i'm thankful to have great friends that would make the time for us to meet up and share anything under the sun together.

i'm thankful that Mum too is getting much more understanding towards me though at times her menopause stage is getting my crazy.well,i love her.my mum is sooo cute ok!

so how can i not be contented with life right?but i think i just need a little adventure...hmmm....

till then,

Irfah.

2009-06-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

Greetings my lovelies !

I've decided to move my blog.I want all the archives away and show my good start,since i'm already moving my life forward.So here it goes,a new blog with new stories and hopefully filled with happy2 stories of mine.

With a blink of eyes, i'm already a month plus here in Eyemar Energy. i never thought of me being in an office,straining my eyes on computers and documents,working 9am -5pm every weekdays.damn.welcome to the metropolitan world irfah!! and what i hate most is, every lunchtime,every food places will be crowded.ergh!

i miss school and friends!! boohoo...

and my baby botak?usual story,my baby botak stuck in jalan bahar.sianx.happy training my dearest! :P

well,its already june,the mid year! see how fast time flies.damn.

oh crap,i'm at work btw.blog again maybe tonight or tomorrow aite.

till then,

take care mates!