I realize my mistake. No one have any idea how disappointed i am with myself to have disappoint someone i love so dearly. having this, i had to bear its consequences. and this have cause me the thing i feared most,losing my dearest.

i dont know whats next. bu i know very well he wouldn't be around anymore like he usually do.it kills me so badly.i dont know what to do,even if i do,i know it can hardly work.

I can't hold this feeling anymore...Baby i'm sorry.i wish you're back.

how stupid can i get....ergh! i'm soooooooooooooo frustrated with myself!!!!!!! whyyyyyyy?!!?!??!?! stupid stupid stupid!!!!

♥ 14:09

Hey ya world!

i've been quiet,not updating and all.been busy.busy with work,busy trying to make life better and so on.

this blog is dying and and lacking of readers too.i really need to get a laptop at hm so at least i could blog and fb-ing off my working hours as i am now relying on my work pc very much.home pc is DEAD.

i got nothing much to say now.til then.take care.and good luck my super dusty blog.

p.s: family,friends and Muhammad Hisham....i love em' dearly.

signing out.

♥ 16:59

Hey world...




i think i've lost the touch and mojo of blogging. i keep letting my blog filled with expired entries,also,totally no updates...even my tagboard so quiet...sianx.

its just that i got nothing to blog about. life been quite stagnant for me...nothing interesting happening.not forgetting,i've been hibernating at home for most weekend...after work?i've been going home straight or rushing to pick my mum up from aunt's place. bf?kesian...i only get to see him like once a wk for only few hours...friends?lagik kesian,i totally dont get to see them.
i just hope things would get better for me soon.its 2010 already and i need things to really be better.

well,anyway,i know its a lil late,but its ok, i guess, Happy New Year 2010 peeps!

now,i'm thinking of how to get myself look healthy.i've been looking sick with my eye bags and my sudden loss of weight. i hardly can sleep and i eat but appetite been bad.like really bad.
hopefully i will be ok soon too.

aiyah.i miss bf.i miss my friends.i miss going out jalan2 pusing2 singapore balik malam2...boohoo.

kla...ciaox ppl!

♥ 15:42

Its been a week since arwah Ayah left us but it feels like it just happen yesterday. Hard to believe he's gone but this is fact,this is the real world...who would have thought Ayah who have been healthy,cheerful and whom have taken well of his heart problem will leave us even much more sooner than we ever expected.

Arwah Ayah was dearly remembered by others for his character and good deeds. His smiles,his jokes,how he scolded me,his presence,how we teased Mak till she'll get frustrated with us...only Allah knows how much i misses him.theres more to what i feel inside but i can hardly describe cause it meant to be felt than being told...

We never know when our loved ones will leave...maybe later,maybe tomorrow or even now at this very moment...we can never see it coming.

Ini lah yang dinama kan takdir,qadha dan qadhar...Hanya Allah yang tahu kerana Dia yang menentukan segalanya...dan hari kematian itu juga sudah tertulis dan selainnya itu hanya akan menjadi sebab akan kematian itu berlaku...

Ya Allah,aku redha akan pemergian Ayah ku,sesungguhnya Engkau lebih menyayangi nya,lapang kan la kuburan Ayah ku,ampuni la dosa-dosa Ayah ku,ini ku pinta padamu kerna Engkau la Maha Pengampun,Pengasih dan Penyayang...Amin...

♥ 16:44

I'm a little too free for the moment...

And heres my TOP 3 HOT LIST!

*drum roll*


As always...the one and only JAY SEAN...mind you! have always been in the list hor.hurhur.



TAYLOR LAUTNER,I didn't know this boy can turn up to be so hot and spicy.hmm...haha!



ROBERT PATTINSON, he just simply have those gorgeous charming look...those eyes?ergh! kills me baby!

well ok.guess i am toooo free...

but can never compare them to the boyfriend la eh :P


k gambar lepak pe.haha!

♥ 12:00

hey ya world...

life is getting a little mundane...
i need some excitement or something. work been hell...i just wanna leave sooner or later...the boyfriend been busy with his work,part time and all...gf ayu is in india,cousin irah is at jurong west temporarily...boring pe?

i spend most of my days going to work,bbdc and home...errr...new routine or what?macam no life aje... however,its quite money-saving to live life this way too tau...but no way gonna let this keep going,i need to deeeeestrresssss myself...

am looking forward to 18 dec...the ite loves will be meeting!woot!

btw,this week a little bliss for me alright...cause till thurs i'll be alone in the office...and so i can do my work peacefully.enjoy it while you can eh fah.

till then, i'll blog my nonsense again.


signing off...luna(tic) no more lunatic.boorriiiinggggg....!!!!

♥ 13:07

Last Saturday was superb!
why?cause baby and i went to catch The Twilight Saga: New Moon.

can you imagine me smiling thw whole night?haha!



The great movie and the two HOTT guys was SUPER MADNESS for me.
Baby keep covering my eyes,hoping i would miss edward's and jacob's hot 'moves'.haha!
sorry aye.i didn't miss a thing!

thnx baby for the new moon night!

♥ 11:42